Those three words are said too much; they're not enough.

I'm about to do something I never thought I'd do: I'm leaving the man I love tomorrow evening, provided I actually have a chance to see him in person. There are many reasons, but number one would be that I'm hurting too much, have been hurting too much this past month or so to continue deluding myself and wishing for a future where there clearly won't be one. It's best to cut my losses and move on.

I love him so much. I would have spent the rest of my life with him, had he continued to feel the same. Had he asked. But my vision's no longer clouded, I can see my place in his world has shifted. I can see that he wasn't ready for this. I can see that it's not going to work, as much as I wish otherwise.

I was a rebound.

The truth fucking kills.

This is for the best, but it hurts like hell. I can't do this any longer. I can't keep someone who clearly no longer wants to be kept.

I just want my pain to stop. I wish I could keep him. I wish things had stayed perfect. I wish people didn't change.

I wish he'd talk me out of it when I do, but I know he won't. I know he wants this, he just won't say it.

Nothing good ever lasts forever. I need to stop fooling myself.

I am setting free the thing that means the most to me in this world right now, the person who is my world.

It hurts. It hurts so much.

Wish me the strength to go through with this.

"If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me
and just forget the world?"